A lot of things happen today. I’ll never forget what happen. I’ve made a silly action. I’m really pissed off myself. I can’t forgive my own self. I don’t know what happen to me. This is not Deq Noor. Huh…. But, why I’m sober is after I called someone who really understand and appreciate me. I think I want to make them hate me but the truth is I want to release my anger. I’m really sorry about what happen. This thing will never happen again. However, I need the answer and decision. It’s for my future and I ready for the consequence. I’ll never cry again. Why??? Because I’ve got strength from someone who always gives strengthen to myself. Even he is not beside me, from call he still can make me happy. He will always be my strength source. Thank you so much. People say I’m insane for what I do until now but I don’t mind as long as I’m happy doing all this. Even though there is no man in my life I’m still want to keep this feeling forever in my hearth. I’m very relief and I’m sure I can confront my life journey.